• 2:54 AM, Sunday, March 2, 2008
the typical drinking session.but not typical feelings.
ytd proved me wrong since 24th nov o6.so all this while i've been living in self-denial to refrain from myself wallowing in self-pity.the history comes back to me again,urging me to once again take that step in attempt to change my life for the better.the only difference is,im no longer the girl i used to be 2years ago.i've changed,improved,and survived.despite that,theres this bit of me that just wouldnt bulge.i though it was all gone.but the fact proved me wrong.the truth shows that i've only pushed reality away and ignored its presence.or rather, reality is there but i've been running away from it on this long,dark road of loneliness.i've succeeded in fooling myself these 2 years but now,i cant even face myself without a mask.eventually,i can NEVER deny my conscience.ever since my 17th bday,
i've let myself fall into this tunnel of no return.
god,im not exactly a loyal fan of urs,but will u ans me?
and the same question 2years ago came back.
为何只有在夜深人静时
你才会成为我的情人?
一旦天亮
睁开双眼后
我们又再度的变回陌生人了…
if any were to wonder what happened ytd(29th feb o7), its just
the typical drinking session.
but not the typical feelings.
subconsciously,my mind gave me a solution to everything.i wont know if its the best,and i wont be able to change anything if i adopt it.but i hope,that if i need, i can have a lil more bravery like my sister.
like i said,i've changed in these 2 years.even when my mind gave me the same solution back then,the me then could never have done it.however,the me now is a wee bit more couragous :)
